Busy is not cool.

I understand at times the nice rhythm in our lives may become irregular and extremely busy Busyfor a season. I know,  like all of us from lived experiences. Nevertheless, this is a dangerous ongoing pattern to base life on, and certainly unsustainable on any level. I know what burnout feels like and I also understand what it is like to be “under the pump,” for what seems like a lifetime.  The little cartoon is a great illustration of how we can miss highly productive opportunities and gain vital help. What is at the core of your busy? It may be similar to me people pleasing? Also, possibly pride, I will do it my way? Whatever you find when you search your heart, will need exploration and contemplation; and if you have faith also prayer. Questions like, why am I continuing this madness? Unquestionably, it is an individualistic exploration and totally unique to your set of circumstances.

The Chinese word for ‘busy’ consists of 2 parts. One part; symbolizes the human heart, the other symbolizes death.The meaning that can be extrapolated is that when one is excessively busy, his heart is dead.We associate busyness with success. In reality, we find there are plenty of people who are very busy but going nowhere.”Busy” is not always a virtue it often means the heart is being neglected”. –

Words by Chin Ning Chu author of “Do Less, Achieve More”

Often people in caring professionals neglect themselves. We must always remember to do the things that help us find meaning and happiness. We must eat well and get some sleep and exercise. In order to be effective careers for others, we should be good cares of yourself. This is not selfish, but necessary to avoid burnout and cause harm to others in our care.

We must always remember to do the things that help us find meaning and happiness. We must eat well and get some sleep and exercise. In order to be effective careers for others, we should be good cares of ourselves. This is not selfish, but necessary to avoid burnout and cause harm to others in our care.

I appreciate it not always simple to initiate changes, especially if you have lots of obligations. Nonetheless, you also have a loyalty to yourself and your family and friends.

I like beautifully written prayers and this is one, is a favourite, when I am considering making big changes.

Teach me to welcome change, instead of fearing it. Lord, I give you these stirrings inside me. I give you my discontent. I give you my restlessness. I give you my doubt. I give you my despair. I give you all the longings I hold inside. Help me to listen to these signs of change, of growth; help me to listen seriously and follow where they lead through the breathtaking empty space of an open door.

Claiborne, Shane. Common Prayer: A Liturgy for Ordinary Radicals (pp. 552-553). Zondervan. Kindle Edition.

 

Is it true in the end we only have ourselves?

I have had numerous people over the years offer advice about looking after number one.

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Look after number one?

They say it with such conviction. However, I sense is their “pain and betrayal – “an action of betraying one’s country, a group, or a person; treachery,” plus, I am certain they have experienced rejection. Although I hear people say this, ” you only have yourself” It does make me feel sorrowful and I do not accept a word of it. Truly, for me, it could not be further from the truth. Granted, it may feel like you are on your own at times. However, if there are no people to talk to you or genuinely care, then you always have God. Your Higher/ True self and the spirit of God can always communicate and this is on offer always as divine support and comfort.

 

“Once your soul comes to its True Self, it can amazingly let go and be almost anything except selfish or separate.”

Rohr, Richard. Immortal Diamond: The Search for Our True Self (p. 20).

Some may say you are talking to your invisible friend but you look inside and search your soul/spirit and you well soon find the divine spark that is in all of us.

Some great old Bible verses like Deuteronomy 31:8 “The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.”

So often I have just spent time talking to God and had no one else that I considered,   could hold my pain and confusion. You may not think He is listening or feel His presence at the time. However, you like me to, have life reviews and will see the hand of God present in everything you have experienced. Suddenly you soon realise like me, He was there the whole time and was listening to every prayer and felt all yours plus my pain. It’s about your level of consciousness, the more you attune your heart to Gods’ heart beat the more you will experience and become more aware of His love and comfort in every area of your life.

“Learning to desire God’s will is not something we can accomplish complish by resolve and willpower. As we shall see, it occurs only when we live so close to God’s heart that the rhythm of our own heartbeat comes to reflect the divine pulse. Then and only then will we be able to truly pray, “Thy kingdom come, thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven.” Then and only then will this prayer be our deepest desire.”

David G. Benner. Desiring God’s Will: Aligning Our Hearts with the Heart of God

 

The scripture is full of wisdom, wisdom is what I am seeking. The wise man asks God for help and leans on God, not just his own understandings. When you only really on your understanding and reject Gods ways and wisdom you will experience desolation and true loneliness.

Romans 8:28 And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.

Hydrangeas and change plus the possibilities of healing.

hydrangeas-r      I am on holidays in Tasmania on my own with relatives.  I planned it because I was felt lead to go. Besides, it will be good to visit people and places that I am writing about in my book. I was interested how my emotions were when I visited the little town that my father suffered his fatal trench cave – in when I was eight. Fascinating, I was surprised how my writing has healed me. I keep saying there is healing in writing but to experience it personally is profound.

What is the healing from writing?

  1. The emotions are gentle when I returned to the house and site he was killed.
  2. I had a pleasant peaceful wander around the little town I grew up in and no unpleasant sadness that was historically difficult to articulate.
  3. I did not feel like I had to rush or chase after anyone in particular.

In the past when I have strolled down memory lane in the little town. I would feel extremely sad and the effects from the visit would linger for a week. It was unpleasant but I still put myself through this everytime I went over to Tasmania. It was a dreadful feeling but I was compelled to go visit the town and just reminisce. This time I defiantly did not experience desolation. Thankfully I had a pleasant feeling of happiness and contentment and certainly was in no hurry to leave.

What’s changed?

The hydrangeas are my grandmother’s favourite and always when I see them it makes me feel good because I absolutely love both grandmothers, they meant the world to me and took great care of me when dad died. hydrangeas-rI am two-thirds through my book about my life and my father’s work fatality. It has been a fascinating journey and one I will be encouraging others to do. The healing is profound and certainly could be measured, simply by seeing how comfortable I am at the place my father was killed.

Lastly, I will be working hard on finishing my book by Christmas. I have some great new insight and pictures to remind me of key people involved in caring for me. I found out I had an infant baptism in the church below with my family. Tasmania has lots of churches. I walked around this church and it was beautiful weather and a great day to take pictures and enjoy healing conversation with some amazing people. I am not an Anglican churchgoer but love this little church in my hometown.

“Consenting to the Flow of Life Life will be discovered to be meaningful only when we dare to receive it as it actually comes to us. I don’t pretend that this is easy, particularly when our present realities are things that we would not naturally welcome. But this shift from willfully trying to force life into a shape that pleases us to a willing acceptance of life in its full reality is

vitally important if we are to find the meaning that already exists in our lives. A meaningful life emerges from living with a full-hearted “yes” of consent to life. What we are consenting to is not simply life as it is in the moment but life as it will continue to come to us. Life is much more like a river than a lake; it is dynamic and ever changing. Since we can’t ultimately change or control it, withholding consent does not change anything but us. It cuts us off from life. In contrast, offering our consent aligns us with life and prepares us to go with its flow rather than swim against its current.”

Benner PhD, David G.. Human Being and Becoming: Living the Adventure of Life and Love (pp. 45-46). Baker Publishing Group. Kindle Edition.

 

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MY Suzuki SV1000

My Suzuki SV1000 is a 2005 model and has 30,000 kilometres on the speedometer. It is in perfect condition and rides like a new bike. My mechanic told me that this particular bike has no need of a major service till 50, 000 kilometres. Most other bikes need the major service at 30,000 kilometres.

“The Suzuki SV1000 and the half-fairedSV1000S are naked bikemotorcycles made by Suzuki since 2003.[4][5] The 996 cc (60.8 cu in) displacement 90° V-twin motorcycles were aimed to compete directly with the Honda VTR1000F (also known as the SuperHawk or FireStorm, depending on the market), which was released prior to the Suzuki, and the low end Ducati one-litre V-twin engined sport bikes. The SV1000 is the big brother to the popular 650 cc SV650 motorcycle. IMG_1504The SV1000 shares many common parts with the SV650, including all bodywork (front fairing, fuel tank and rear plastics/subframe), but the main frame, handlebars, swingarm and forks are different. The front forks and brakes are sourced from the earlier GSX-R600. The SV1000 owes some of its heritage to the TL1000S, from which it inherited its engine which was tuned for more mid-range and slightly reduced top-end power. “

However, I have been riding motorbikes since I was a kid. Interestingly, have only owned two road bikes. As a child, mates had bikes and shared. This bike is the biggest I have owned and by far the most exciting to ride. I have ridden a Harly Davidson Heritage Softail and other large Japanese motorbikes. Finally am the proud owner of one myself. Highly recommend Suzuki to anyone who is looking for a reliable and fun bike.

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I caught a ferry across to Sorento

 

Why am I writing self-published Kindle book. ?

I know the statistics on Kindle books and the odds of selling a large amount is realistically out of reach and possibly impossible without a lucky break. Indeed winning lotto easier. However, to many, it is a modern day gold rush. I admit I certainly am not a gifted writer. I started academic writing in 2009 and with significant literacy issues. I have not invested large amounts of wealth in this venture. My true motivation lies in the healing it has allowed for me and my family. My father fatal trench cave when I was eight, had a devasting impact on my life and ripple effects still on family and myself.

  • Eric Liddel and Rainer Maries Rike’s – Go into yourself and find the reason to write, rather than look to others for affirmation on your writing. If to not to write would be diminished your truth, and writing (or giving a gift) is its own reward then write or give the gift – its Gods will for you.

This Picture is the block next to our house in country Tasmania back in the seventies. We owned it and dad worked as a trencher installing new sewage pipes.Screen Shot 2017-03-29 at 8.45.07 am The management specified 1.5-metre trenches with wooden scaffolding to protect against cave-ins. The trench was over 3 meters and no timber scaffolding. The irony, he had a cave-in a couple weeks before, he just got out in time and lost his gumboots. You will read about dad and his risky jobs. He was thirty-seven when he died and I was eight.

I write about my life and how it has unfolded and background stories of key people in, Part A and Part B, I will discuss the impact and the ways I have managed to survive and overcome so many hurdles including mental illness and chronic pain.

My book will only be available on Kindle for $3.95. I have no publisher and could not afford a to print copies myself.